today's grade: C-

today made me feel like a complete waste of life. thank god i actually went out around town for a bit, making me feel slightly productive. what did i do today? welll i…

• finished watching spinal tap (it was alright)
• watched donnie darko (amazing. i want to discuss it in great detail with other fans of the movie.)
• made a shabby attempt at looking presentable to the outside world
• brushed the 2" of fluff off my car.
• went to killingworth and clinton libraries and rented a shitload of movies. (my weekly ritual)
• at the clinton library, the 762-year-old woman who was checking my movies out eyed me warily, and asked “how old are you” because you have to be 18 to check out movies from that library. which is a stupid rule but ok i’m past that limitation anyway. i told her my age and she looked like she wanted some legit id or something. DUDE. why are old people so suspicious of me? every other age group adores me, christ.
• i remember that old bitch checked me out after i turned 17, and i was all “yeah! rated r movies!” so i tried to check movies out of that library and that lady asked for my age, and i proudly said 17 and she shot me down….and i didn’t see little miss sunshine for another YEAR, people. because i refused to succumb to the evil that is blockbuster videos.
• that was pointless, but it was a blast from the past, so it was significant to me.
• did the bottle return at stop and shop. i love recycling.
• went to TJ MAXX because i forgot how much i love that place. when i get my own place after i move out of my charming little dorm situation, i am decking myself out with this cheap designer shit. i ended up getting betsy johnson socks, an american eagle bag and fancy lavender hand soap for under $15. i wanted to buy like 8 billion candles too but i stopped myself because i remembered i don’t have a job! (OH HAHAHAHAHA OF COURSE i completely forgot about that void in my life. jesus.)
• ran out of things to do so i went home and made a delicious sandwich.
• at that point, i got really pissed off. i didn’t want to do anything. it would’ve been the perfect opportunity to call some people up but no. i dunno what got into me, i just became a little recluse and decided i didn’t want to see anyone. 
• dinner was miserable. i talked to two friends afterwards. one of them was legit annoyed at me, so i was kind of a bitch back, and one actually invited me out. if i were in a better mood and if i actually showered today i would be there now…but it wasn’t happening. 
• i get a rush from blowing people off. but only when i have a much-more-fun back up plan. otherwise, i’m left to entertain myself for the evening, which after a while becomes not fun anymore.

i can tell where my annoyance stems from…not that i care to discuss it, but it comes from several areas. one involving the lack of reel big fish concert in my life. one involving being trapped in my house with nothing to do. one involving the lack of job. one involving the antsiness of finally getting back to school, just in time for the last week of JANUARY!!!!

and yeah. sorry to ramble on and on but i feel better man.

oh, and today’s grade is a C-. it would’ve been a C, if i actually showered, which would’ve prompted me to go out tonight, which probably raised it to a B or even an A depending, but i was determined to have a shit day, and have a shit day i did.

BUT…

AVENUE Q TOMORROW! woooot.